BFF

I have been thinking a lot this weekend about an interaction I had with one of my seniors. I took her to the doctor last week. That medical campus is torn up leaving very few parking spots for the bus. She is completely capable of walking so we parked far away. It was a bit of a walk so I apologized to her. She said, “Exercise never hurt anyone. Well, maybe it hurts you. I know you just had a baby!”

Wwwhhhhaaatttt?? When did that happen? I just brushed it off because it is her reality and there is no sense breaking it.

When inside the clinic she proceeded to tell everyone about my tall husband who gives her hugs and is just the nicest person alive. (I really cannot wait to meet him!) She told everybody that her parents abandoned her to get a divorce and that I am taking care of her and am her best friend. I am pretty sure she thinks I am older than her. She told everybody about how my husband, new baby, and I took her in. As we walked back to the bus swinging our arms hand-in-hand she leaned her head on my shoulder and thanked me for always being there for her. I wanted to cry…

Today her husband came to visit. She thinks he is her father so she was so happy that she wasn’t abandoned anymore. An hour before he came I told her I was going to take her with me to pick up another resident from visiting his wife. I walked outside to say hi to her family and she told her “dad” she needed to leave because we had a friend date. She told them I was her best friend ever. They just said, “Thank you for being her best friend.” Again, I wanted to cry…

I can not even explain how humbled and honored I feel to take care of these sweet seniors with dementia. Days can be hard, my patience can wear thin, but I just think of all the times these seniors have leaned their head on my shoulder, as their best friend. It is a tremendous responsibility to have this trust. A responsibility I do not take lightly.

So, I now have a baby and a tall-handsome husband and will let my dear, sweet resident live her reality being my best friend in my best life with my new little family. I am glad she gets to live in my dreams for the future.

Turkey Feathers

I slept horribly last night…. HORRIBLY. I woke up at midnight, could not relax and just lay awake. When I finally started to feel drowsy I put on my meditation/hypnosis app. It was talking about imagining a feather… any feather… any size, and as I would breathe in and breathe out, it would rise and fall. Of all the feathers I could imagine, I imagined turkey feathers. When I was a kid we raised turkeys as an “experience”. I remember my dad saving the turkey feathers and coloring the ends black to use for Cub Scouts. Imagining a big turkey feather with the end colored black, as I breathed in and out, was strangely comforting.

This Day in History

I love that feature on Facebook! It brings back good and often funny memories I would have probably forgot about. I was suppose to blog about this on January 17th… but there is nothing like procrastinating so close to New Year’s.

This FB post popped up from a mall walking excursion with some of my past oldies. I remember the look on these men’s faces and couldn’t help but laugh.

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And another memory from that day… a year later:

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Out of the Mouth of a Child.

I have said it multiple times that being an Aunt is the best thing in the world. I can only imagine the love a parent has for their children because I love my nieces and nephews a lot.

This is my Lizzie-Bear! She is spunky, and silly, and loves my makeup, and always knows the right things to say. She makes me laugh and makes me cry happy tears. Part of blogging is so I remember things I want to remember. And this is one of them.

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My brothers birthday was recently and I went to his home to celebrate. I was having kind of a bummer week and  as I walked in Lizzie said (in her super cute little voice), “Auntie Lala, you’re my best gal!”

I melted! I needed to hear something so innocent and loving and sweet. It was simple… but it made my day!

1 Peter 5:6-7

“Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.”

I like this scripture passage. I think it can be so easy to be prideful and rely upon yourself instead of relying on God. I sometimes think my life is going so great and then something happens to humble me. My life if great! But what is missing is that dedication to my Father in Heaven. I miss praying daily, and reading the word of God, and going to church. I miss that companionship of having Him in my life. My Heavenly Father loves me and wants me to be happy and successful and humble. I know the things I need to do, but why is it so hard sometimes?

Meditation

I have been away from the blogger-sphere for a little while. I have been suffering from some nasty depression and anxiety this past month. Something I really do not like to talk about. Even though I probably should. I noticed that there were many things I was doing… things I stopped… that really helped to keep my anxiety in check. One of these is blogging (I even pre-planned posts in my planner. Because it just isn’t legit if it isn’t in my planner)…

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The other is meditating. Meditation is something Emese, my health coach, brings up quite frequently. We talk about the benefits: it reduces stress, improves concentration, encourages healthy lifestyles, increases self-awareness, INCREASES HAPPINESS, increases acceptance, slows aging, and there is cardiovascular and immune health benefits.

I have a REALLY hard time quieting my mind. In fact, usually in January I do a “quiet January”. I turn off the radio, stop listening to blogs and shows, and just drive in peace. It has usually been an amazing time of self-realization and making plans for the upcoming year. This January was far from quiet.

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So in an effort to re-center my soul, decrease my anxiety, and quiet my mind. I have been reusing some of my meditation apps. Every morning I am beginning to sit up and give myself a moment of quiet reflection after praying, but at night I use my meditation/hypnosis apps. I notice a difference in some of them. The nights when I use the Sleep Well app… I SLEEP WELL! The Migraine app, truly does lessen my migraines… I wake up in a better mood after I meditate, and I don’t feel as jumpy. I know I have a long way to go, but meditation really does seem to help. Have you had any benefits to meditating?

Simply Balanced

I remember months ago opening a can of cranberry raspberry LaCroix and spitting it out because it was the most disgusting thing I have ever tasted. Like whole body cringing because it was so gross… I threw the whole case away because it was disgusting. Fast forward to starting Whole30… I can not get enough sparkling water. I LOVE IT! I find it interesting how your taste buds can so drastically change based on your diet, health, or simply just by aging. I think back to foods I hated as a child and young adult but can now stomach to eat.

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I wanted to share my new favorite sparkling water. Purchased at Target, I LOVE Simply Balanced Cucumber Mint sparkling water. No sugar! No Sodium! Refreshing! Delicious! And the price is right. Most days I spend less than $3 for a case AND end up saving 5% using the Target App (formerly known as Cartwheel). So far every flavor of the Simply Balanced Sparkling Water I have tried, I have loved.

Best part of it being cold outside…. my multiple brands and multiple flavors of sparkling water stay ice cold in my car.