This is how I am feeling. Sometimes the pain from depression is too hard to handle but you just pick up the pieces and throw them on your shoulders with the rest of your burdens and not let anyone else in on your pain or let them take it away from you. Sometimes it feels better to suffer alone.
I have done many birthday parties this year with Margaret and now we get to do my wedding. I truly love decorating for birthday parties.
January 2014- Isaac ‘ s 1st birthday/ Seahawks Themed
We made the pinata from scratch. I am not sure if I will ever do that again but it was an experience I can say I have done!
February 2014 – Los Angeles- King Save’s Birthday Banner
This was after a 18 hour drive from Seattle to Los Angeles… Excuse the looks 🙂
February 2014- Faith ‘ s 2nd Birthday- Santa Rosa California- Dora themed
Turned out adorable! We made the flowers on the wall out of cupcake liners.
March 2014- BABY ISAIAH Jungle Themed 1st Birthday
I have a lot to blog about and access on my phone to do it, yet I never do. As I sit here at the gym I am thinking about my weight loss goals and how I have changed these past 4 months. I have lost 34 pounds and am starting to feel great about myself. I am not to my goals yet… but I am getting closer. I think about 4 months ago I wouldn’t go anywhere alone. Now I am at the gym alone and feel okay about it. I feel comfortable alone. I have been to the movies alone and feel comfortable. I have taken myself to the restaurant alone and feel comfortable. I feel comfortable alone…. and what happens? I get engaged. I am getting married on August 30th and I truly think God wanted me to get to the point where I was okay with myself before He could add another person to my life. Now of course I am feeling 10,000 pounds of added stress with everything associated with a wedding. But, it is an exciting stress and I am ready for what lies ahead.
Hopefully this post will be the start of more frequent posts.
*Enjoy the photo of my Fijian family. This was from this past weekend in Santa Rosa, CA.
*And two of my nephews. Who are amazing!
*And Samuel and my future husband 🙂
*And my cute little babies, Isaac and Faye Faye
*And my Godsend Margaret who is a huge blessing in my life. I don’t think she realizes how much so. We are going to start a party decorating business. I will post more about that later today.
And this beauty is a like 2 months difference in my face from working out!